Courtney Doyle is a mom to 6 children and 9 fur babies.
You read that right, I have 6 kids. Which I am sure is prompting you to think “How do you do that?” Girl, let me tell you… A whole lot of Jesus, coffee, and a great husband who keeps me semi-sane.
MOM is who I am and what I do. From the very youthful age of 18, (insert gasp) I have been a Mom. By the age of 29, my husband and I had 5 children, and I secretly knew number 6 would be on his way one day.
For over half of my life this is how I have identified “WHO” I am.
It’s what we do when we meet people the first time, we tell them WHO we are, and WHAT we do. I rarely answer with, I have a degree in radiology, a real estate license and have been on a board of trustees for 7 years overseeing a 1-billion-dollar budget. But I do say, “I am a Mom.”
For years I allowed my identity to be defined by the successes and failures of my children. Leaving me teetering on a tight rope between the dangerous pits of pride and defeat.
It wasn’t until I stopped focusing on WHO I am and started focusing on WHOSE I am that I was able to find my balance in motherhood.
Courtney and Amber discuss identity in Christ versus identity in motherhood and how easily we place our value in the perceived successes of our children. You’ll hear Courtney share about losing her home to Hurricane Rita, life as a mother to a child who is an addict, and the ways God has sustained her through at all.
“I knew there was something different about Havana and something special. She was my lifeline. She was my lifeline to prayer. Any troubles that I had, I called Havana.”
“My first son was born whenever I was 18….My career was motherhood.”
“There was nothing else I could identify with, other than being a mother. I began to get a very skewed reality: if my kids are behaving, if they’re all dressed appropriately, if everybody’s hair is done, if we appear one way, then I appear good.”
“I began to realize that when my kids were doing really good, I was really good…And when my kids are doing really bad, well, shame on you, and what could you have done better?”
“Mary is put in the middle of it to be a vessel. But at the same time, she’s a complete bystander, she has no control over God’s will for Jesus’s life.”
“My identity is not determined by his [her son] testimony, my identity is in Jesus.”
“I certainly don’t have the power or the control to navigate and point his life in the direction in which I, Courtney, want it to go. His life needs to be in the hands of Jesus. That’s the Creator, and the Maker and the Path Carver for him, not me.”
“If you could scream addiction out of somebody, I’ve done it. If you could cry addiction away, I’ve done it. There is not any amount of money that we have not been willing to spend to help him and we have spent and taken away from the other kids. I’ve done it all. It’s not what I can do. It’s what He can do.”
“I wasn’t just masking the reality of what was happening in my house, I was masking the work that Christ was doing in each one of my children, in my marriage, in me personally and He [Jesus] didn’t sign up to come to my masquerade ball.”
“I truly believe that amidst the hurricane of life, that the eye of the storm is Jesus.”